Just feeling dysphoric
Sometimes I get so frustrated, because it ain’t like Im not doing anything for my dysphoria to go away, I’m on T and I’ve been working out for like an entire year but sometimes I feel like I look the same way I did before I started working out and taking t and it just frustrates me so much, I wonder how much longer will I have to wait till I look like I want to look. I have just been on t for 3 months, yeah, not long but still yk? It’s like, I’m doing everything on my hands for this to change yet it’s taking forever and it just annoys me. Wdym I won’t be able to go to the pool this year either even tho I have been trying so hard to build a body I like enough to get into the pool or the beach. Honestly just saddens me up how much missed opportunities I’ve lived just because I have to endure freaking dysphoria all the time. I hate it so much. I feel like I look so much like a woman and I hate it, I hate it so much, at least my body does yk? Not my face, I don’t think so because I’m growing facial hair and my voice is deeper now, I barely get misgendered, but still, I just want to like my body too and not just my face, I want to be confident so bad and to be shirtless, I wanna wear tank tops and whatever, I wanna tan, I wanna live my life.