u/Holiday_Action_2599

This is a throw away account. Right now in deep agony & the sadness thinking about having wasted youthfulness in a sexless marriage. Married for over 16 years. Sex was only for child production & that too can count the number of times. Now in this pre menopausal stage - this feeling is hurting. He is a perfect man a great father but never felt the intimacy of having a husband role in my life. I don’t know how people deal with this especially in this phase (40’s) when u can’t control your emotions or rather the feelings are high. The frequent thoughts of life - of the various could haves is haunting like anything. Female ( 42years) . Please don’t judge my character here & ask why at this age u r here.