i cannot do this anymore i need help running away
im sorry if this doesnt make sense im typing this out while crying my eyes out. im 15F turning 16 soon, i am an athiest and a lesbian but i live in england with my super religious, toxic and homophobic muslim parents who will keel me if they find out im a lesbian or that i dont believe in god. For context, they dont let me do ANYTHING. im not allowed to leave my house alone, cant go over to friends' houses or have them over at mine, i have to go to mosque for 3 ish hours everyday after school, i have to wear a hijab and cover my entire body all the time even in 30 degree weather, they also abuse me physically sometimes but not that often, im not even allowed to have a bank account/card bcs they think women should not have financial freedom, they also have access to my email its so suffocating i js wanna be a normal teenage girl and live my life but they make everything feel like a battle while my younger brother gets to do anything he wants to do bcs hes a boy. i have had enough of them ive planned on running away when i turn 18 since i was 11 or smth. running away is all i think about these days i have had enough of them, they ridicule me everyday.
i plan on running away the week i get my a level results bcs if im still living with them by the time im 19 ill kms there wont be any point in living. although i dont have a job rn i plan on getting one the summer after my gcses which will be next year. ill get a job save up prob get a car by the time im in year 13 and run away.
if u guys can offer any advice or helpfor running away pls do bcs i cannot get caught, if i do get caught they WILL drag me back home and kill me. you might think im exaggerating but im really not ive known them all my life and ik what theyll do if they find out about any of this.
i wanna do a DA bcs its prob the only way ill be financially independent and not end up homeless after running away. if anyone from the UK whos done/is doing a degree apprenticeship pls lmk if theres any way i can do the interview process without my parents knowing. also if anyone from the uk w a toxic muslim family has ran away before PLS give me advice tysm for reading.