I feel like im in a fog and see no good way out of this so i need some advice.
Me and this guy have been good friends but we started talking and now entered a relationship, it's a young relationship but i think that doesnt invalid my concerns.
I've always thought of me as straight and don't actually feel attraction to men, but this guy always transmitted some girl vibes and I honestly can only see him as a girl. Which brings me to the topic
We're both teens, and since we started talking, i have been having these concerns that i dont know how to approach him about them. He's FTM and haven't done surgery and i dont know if he's on hormones. I have a really big problem which is caring about what other people may think or say about me + my family is kinda of transphobic and homophobic and these are the main topics im worried about. I just can't go out and show the public im with him like i would do with a girl. We've been making out and that only brings me the feeling that i need to rush this decision more quickly.
I feel an asshole for not having the guts to accept the facts and blame myself even more for a thought that always lingers my mind whenever i touch this topic: "I wished he detransitioned"
That's mostly it, i need some advice on how to get out of this tough situation. I feel like every possible outcome of this leads me to lose either my family or him.