I can't do this anymore
My husband has gambled, mostly sports bets, over $200k. He has lied then apologized, then love bombed me into believing him and lie again. The level of hurt is unbelievable. I work so much overtime for years. I have begged him to get help. Now, for the first time ever, he has zero access to his phone and has gone a week with no compulsive gambling but oh my god he is so short and mean. I work long shifts at the hospital and when I come home and finally wind down, I will tear up and cry because I'm so exhausted from everything. We are negative in the bank, he's active duty and his job is at risk, I have a mass on my breast that's schedule a biopsy. So yes, his last week I was tearful. The minute a tear fell or he heard a sniffle, he would make mean comments and leave the room. I feel so alone and I just really needed him. I'm scared. He goes to one mandated meeting with some sudcc counselor on base. That's it. Won't go to meetings, nothing. I get majority of the blame. I just want this to end and him be nice again. I feel so alone. I don't know how to help him but I also need some support. We have no friends or family by us.