r/GamblingRecovery

I lost all my money at the casino, including the money I had set aside for my rent. I only have two hours left to pay my rent, and I don’t know what to do. I’ve been trying so hard to quit gambling, but no matter what I do, I keep going back. I feel like I’ve lost control, and now I’m about $10,000 in debt.

Please, I really need help. I don’t want to gamble anymore. I just want to stop and get my life back on track. :(

i used to be a happy person before.

So, October 1st i woke up and saw my paycheck was small. Looking back it wouldn't have been an issue, it just meant less take out. I had mine and my now ex's money sitting in my account. I got on stake. Started doing bonus buys. It just kept going and going and i thought it had to pay out sometime. It didnt.

My ex was left anxious. This was the first time he trusted me to send the rent money to the landlord since he found out about the last time. It was all gone by noon. I told him what i did after making him wait for hours while i cowardly didnt respond. He waited a few hours and then told me he was moving out and that we were broken up. He's moving to a city 5 hours away.

We've talked since then and he has told me he wants to be together again in the future but i need to prove myself. I got a counselor and attended my first Gamblers Anonymous meeting. I wish i had taken these steps before but i thought i had the willpower to not fuck up again. The meeting has taught me that i am a compulsive gambler and that i will never be able to take a bet again. I need people that will hold me accountable. I needed him to break up with me.

I love him more then anything. It is breaking my heart over and over again knowing what i did and what it did to him. Im scared that he will process his emotions and then change his mind. Im scared that this time this isn't salvagable. I feel guilty that my focus is on saving the relationship. He does still want to go on a date with me before he leaves so maybe that's something

My last bet was placed October 1st 2026 infront of my workplace at my smoking area. I am a compulsive gambler. This is a emotional problem. I will never place a bet again.

I beg anyone who sees this and thinks they don't have an issue gambling, or worse are actively stuck in a cycle of addiction, to please go look at the 20 questions. You cant gamble your way out of your addiction. You cant white knuckle it and do it yourself. You need help. Please get help before you lose everything.