Is there a right answer for keeping or deleting their pictures and videos?
Every few months I find that there are more places where his pictures or videos are synced to the cloud. He had changed a lot during his treatment after a bone marrow transplant. He had that moonface from steroids. I was cleaning up my computer, thinking I won't come across his videos from when he looked so sick..but I just saw one and my world just crashed again..its been 5 years I think I am ready to meet someone new but I am NOT ready to not break down if I see photos or videos of him being sick.
I usually give in to how I am feeling in the moment - whether to keep or delete those files. I can never complete the activity because it is so emotionally exhausting. But now I am wondering would it be so wrong to delete probably 90% of the pictures and keep only the happiest ones? At this point is it about preserving his memories or safeguarding my mental health? Can there even be a right answer to this...
As always, thank you for your kindness in reading my posts..