u/HolyNameOfMaryChoral

I don't know where to start. I'm so jealous of her. It's fucking me over. I don't even know what do I see in her that made me feel this way, I don't even know is it me wanting to be a woman or just her. The being of her, everything she does is messing with me in ways I can't explain. I'm imitating her appearance, her persona, her emotions. I want her name I want her life even though it's by no means fantastic. I know it's creepy, it's disrespectful, I'm sorry. It's not a fetish or sexual thing anymore, I'm literally crying. But holy moly. Is this love or something, is this so called gender envy, is this AGP, what is it? Have anyone felt this way?