Need help please
M22 kind of shelled myself from the idea of dating especially after college now that I’m back gone and working in a rather suburban area. Rejection is part of the game I understand that but I’m really not too fond of the whole present myself to be critiqued, examined and often disregarded. Just seems I’m not the type of person people go further with and I struggle with feelings of low self worth for sure and turning negative experiences (that I’m realizing are just inevitable) as like proof of my insecurities. How does one become so ignorant to the negative and just keep going. I feel if nothing changes nothing changes and I’ll keep in this loop of trying and quitting over and over. I don’t know if you need specifics about me, I work out often. Like physically I would say I’m good I understand muscles don’t gift you anything but internal at least from my personal experience. I try to keep my mind off these things honestly. I read books surrounding the topic of courage in interpersonal relationships I understand and also do not blame women for my lack of success. If anything I blame myself more than I could blame women even though I “work” on myself just confused honestly but I find myself constantly thinking about relationships as I’ve been pretty to myself especially after college and I have no social circle my age… brutal I know so I spend a lot of time at my job just in thought. This is long my bad lol not good at getting my thoughts out but I would sincerely appreciate feedback