u/HomenumReveli0

The title says it. I've been ttc for 5 years. I've done countless medicated, tracked and planned cycles and 3 IUIs. So of course I (like all of us here) am intimately aware of the painful hope of the 2 week wait.

This is my first IVF wait and I can't stop hyper focusing on Thursday morning at 7:30 am when I'll have my blood draw test. It's the most I've allowed myself to have hope in YEARS. I've looked up the due date and allowed myself to think about buying baby things. I've shut that part of myself down so hard I didn't think it would come back so strongly. I'm excited but the excitement makes me feel terrified. I don't really have a point for this. I just can't shake that this 2 week wait hurts more.