Should I text her?
Okay so I am genuinely confused how to express and this is how it starts so I got into highschool and in our class there are like only 50 to 60 students and me and my bestfriend got there together so she used to be my childhood bestfriend and there is another girl whom we both used to know from our previous school but we're just acquaintance so let's call her A and somehow we made a group of friends in our highschool we used to do stuff together bunk classes together sneak out and lived our life so A became good friends with my bestfriend let's call her S and there is a guy in the group who became really close with me and the guy lived near A's house so they used to come together to school
now somehow my bestfriend S got really detached from me and she started hang out with A which made me sad but I became okay with it
then my bestfriend got sick and she stopped coming to school in the mean time the boy that I was really close with and I started having teenage love, like we were exploring and we were afraid to fall in love
so somehow A supported us and we became official now as A saw S was not coming to school and she started staying with me always and started hating A my ex bestfriend for some reason and A became really close with me during my relationship with my boyfriend A and I started having sleepovers and we became so good friends the type of friends when I call at midnight crying and she comes over and says we are gonna solve it together the type of friends where I do her assignment when she got her fever and she oils my hair when I get the flu then it all started A started dating someone from our group too and me and my boyfriend were supportive about her as we all are friends and are in the same class things suddenly started getting weird like A calls my boyfriend in the middle of night to talk A was super friendly with the boys I mean she wanted to be and we all used to do face time at midnight and talk for hours and suddenly something shifted inside me I started noticing how A always talks about my boyfriend and one day we are having wine and me and my boyfriend had an argument so she suddenly says "how type of girlfriend are you? Does you even know he had a fever" and I got really mad that how is she Telling me about MY BOYFRIEND like this how is she pointing out to me like this she is my friend too but she started acting like she is more close to my boyfriend than me like she knows updates about my boyfriend that I don't
I confronted my boyfriend that it's bothering me and had a fight mean while we were a 5 guys 2 girls grp and out of 5 , 1 was my boyfriend and my boyfriend also started having problems with other 2 guys in the group like the normal friend stuff changed and turned into something really bad
okay we were immature kids i thought that after that our farewell came and till farewell everything changed i changed my behaviour towards A and everyone started taking sides no one took side of A because lately she became so touchy with my boyfriend and my boyfriend stopped answering A' s call and she called him like a maniac like 50 to 60 times a day and A didn't tell me once that she is calling my boyfriend that times a day I got to know that from my boyfriend during our farewell that's my last meeting with A I never once missed A because the rage building inside me that after knowing we are dating she should keep some boundary with my boyfriend but she didn't.okay farewell goes
After farewell we all are moving to another city for college and oneday A visits my boyfriend's home with her mother and gives a shirt and a letter and says never to show the letter to anyone but my boyfriend shows that to me and she wrote in the letter that she chooses my boyfriend always she is always a good friend for him but I parted him away from her and that she is so sad that my boyfriend chose me over a friend and a friend will always stay no matter what and a girlfriend will leave friends are forever girlfriend is not this is what she wrote in that letter
I used to cry for her how much I missed her and I used to think I should reach out to her and say sorry and sort things out between all of us but when I read that letter my blood started boiling again and I started hating her she never once reached out to me that broke me the most
This passes and we are now in college me and my boyfriend stay together and we are in the same college we are. 5 years together A always used to text my boyfriend now and then 1000 of messages and calls he never once picked them up we used to ignore her and we lost most of our friends due to this or lost touch all got busy with their own lives the only friend I had was my boyfriend
and one day suddenly I heard her father died and I was really sorry about it and as we used to stay at each other's house I got sad and I thought about reaching out to her the next day
The next day one of her college friends texted my boyfriend some sympathetic stories about her and tells my boyfriend to come age give mental and emotional support to her
My boyfriend straight up says no
and I again really got hurt that she never once said to me never once texted me I was the one who was there at her lowest days and I knew more than my boyfriend did I was so close to her yet she chose my boyfriend to text to
I didn't reach out to her
This was 6 months ago I still miss her so much after all these I never once found a friend like she was
Like we used to joke around we used to do silly things like we used to have so much to say to each other and we used to cook out of scratch i miss her after all this I'm still thinking about her like should I reach her and text her or what should I do I don't know I am still thinking I never got the taste of her friendship in anyone I met I feel so lonely now even if I go out with other friends I miss her all the time TL;DR