Just as the title says…. My husband was not doing well with his CSAT, it was redundant and the cost was too much. Out of hoping resentment for me woildnt build up by him going and basically sabotaging, we opted him to take a break from CSAT, continue weekly meetings and to go back to his LPC who he genuinely opens up to more and feels understands him.
I guess I’m triggered today. He came back to me after his season today and was saying the positives and how he ultimately feels more comfortable and seen wit his LPC. And that he’s happy to be back seeing her.
My husband has not had any type of emotional connection to his acting out (SWs, porn, massage parlours). So I don’t know if this is just my fear from seeing what happens here, but I genuinely feel scared he’ll fall in love with her or maybe I feel intimidated because he’s building an emotional relationship with a woman. He said that he was talking about spirituality today, and that she just completely understood off the get go what he was saying. All he was expressing is that he felt understood. And I said, passively on my part, “haha sounds likes you’re in love”. He reassured me, absolutely not, leaned into the conversation to figure out what was going on, and even apologized for the trigger as that wasn’t his intent.
The sex addiction was never emotionally bonded or driven, I was his emotional connection and the others were his physical. (I know that isn’t really true, as there is still emotions, but yeah).
I’ve been doing really well so this was definitely out of nowhere for me as a trigger. Has anyone experienced this ? I don’t want to tell him I’m triggered, or I feel scared… idk. I don’t want this issue to make him not go, as he used to really hesitate being in therapy at all and I do see growth. I just feel so weird.