Addict with a pen psa ADDICTION, SA, ABUSE, idolation
You were thing that saved me and ruined me, I spent all my teen years trying to kill myself and there was times I got close and when I wasn't doing that I was indirectly trying kill myself which almost got myself even more. I couldn't sleep without night tares and my own breath was like alarm bells reminding me I'm still alive. Before you I never known how it felt feeling safe. With a childhood stolen to physical and sexual abuse and unstable house hold you came in to save. I mean I started smoking you with my family and then you became my family . You numb me you took away sleep and replaced it with the comfort of not feeling . How did it come to this you're a traitor I finally found one thing that brought me joy true happiness i never knew love before them and you took them . I fucking hate you but I always chose you. .