▲ 3 r/Dream+1 crossposts

I woke up from dream within a dream out of spit that my mind was making me dream that

Soooo I was having a nightmare in which I was in my shared a house and friend of another country of one my flatmates was going to sleep in my house without my flatmate there, but it was alright bc he was trust worthy (pls note I know all this people irl, it's distorcion of reality) things go on for a while, but i end up falling asleep in my own dream, and then i wake up with that friend in my bed, a really dark figure asking why does my flatmate doesnt like him back, and he started following me around ready to off me, but i think i offed him first or something (this first nightmare i don't its relevant, bc i don't know if there is any meaning, what comes next its worse)

So i wake up in my own dream, relieved like wow that's over, but then i voice begins narrating that i'm gonna relived that nightmare in a another scenario, and i was like NOOOO truly believing i was trapped in a dream, but in dream of that world i was actually dreaming not real life, if you know what i mean. I felt so betrayed by own head that even if i was not able to move, i started to scream the first thing i remember in my head, a song, A FULL SONG , like really loud, while the man was still narrating, and then i woke up two minytes into the 2 song more or less with my pulse acelerating and was like yeah this wasn't a normal dream.

Because it felt like i fought hard to wake up and at some point my head just gave up on me and let me wake up, now i don't want to go back to sleep bc hell nah im going back there. And if i'm going back, i feel so separate from the me within me, my subsconscious or whatever that i might just curse it out, that if i remember this.

Someone could shed a light on what this could mean, what kinda dream it is, if there is anything i can do ( if it is a bad thing pls don't tell me i don't need more worries in my life) also to be fully transparent i have some sleep paralysis episodes but this was not it.

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u/Honey_bellie — 4 days ago

I live for other people's happiness

So hey... for a while now I have been noticing, although I'm sure it was always there I just didn't care until now, that I live for others. It's not like I don't want to live anymore and I keep livimg because of others, it's that my life revolves around other people how they treat me and think about me. It is really tiresome that my main concerns is always if other people like me or not, then what I like about myself and what brings me pleasure. My happiest moments are when people hug me and treat me like I'm worth the while, I can't seem like them the normal way, I seem to idolatrize them and then when they don't reply for whatever reason I feel so sad and disappointed and think the worse already and it distabilizes me so much that I can't do any other stuff right I feel like.

For the longest time I hadn't any friends, now that I have some they all just seem one bad day way from hating me, but I need them to validate me, to see me, to make my life feel is worth living, but at the same is tiresome and I know is really unhealthy and I can't keep living like this.

Do anyone have any advice please?

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u/Honey_bellie — 2 months ago