Here goes. I’m ready. Going to hang this addiction/pastime/habit up. I’m done. Years and years of escorts, sugar babies, ONS, dating apps, porn and whatever pervy thing I could find, I’m ending on a specific day soon.
With that in the plan and having been faithful to my gf for a while now, I just tried “one last ginzo zing” to blatantly sow my oats and I’m glad it failed. This addiction was not meant to be me. I’m spending the time ahead to forgive myself for wasting a ton of time thinking certain fantasies would come true if I keep at it. I have other things in life that have come true that are much better.
Breaking point was visiting an adult theater and seeing other men roam like the walking dead trying to find a way to bust. I realized I don’t want to be them.
I’m opening my eyes. A 12-step program isn’t for me but I can do it from within. Will I still watch porn? As much as any normal guy will. Will I still ogle women? Same answer. Will I think with my little head for everything? Not anymore!