My doctor got a gene site test done before writing the prescription. Turns out, all ELEVEN antidepressants I've already tried were on the red list.
So we tried wellbutrin+buspar and OH MY GOD.
I don't argue with myself about doing stuff. I just...do it. I can feel the difference between boredom and legitimate hunger. I'm not spinning out because I'm too anxious to do anything. I haven't fantasized about offing myself since I've been on it. Colors quite literally look brighter. Food has SO MUCH MORE FLAVOR OH MY GOD. I can go from one high-speed task to another with zero emotional attachment. The static in my head is so QUIET.
I wanted to wait until the honeymoon period was over before I said anything. If I had been on this earlier my life would have been so, so different. The thought that this might be how everyone else lives life makes me want to cry.
Except I don't think I *can* cry anymore? It's a worthwhile trade, think.
Edit: Genesight. I didn't think to double check spelling so now I feel like a doofus. Sorry about that.