Tw. Trauma, ed
Sorry for the click batey title even though it’s semi serious. I know you’re not supposed to seek medical advice from reddit but just bear with me. I just feel so frustrated. Since I was a teenager, whenever I am going through a horrible time the focus just zones in on my body. When i was in high school and my mum was in rehab it all started. My whole focus went to my food and my grades. Now I’m almost 30 and its the same thing, both my grandparents died unexpectedly in the past 4 months, my mums addiction is ruining my life, my brother and I are basically no contact after having an amazing relationship forever and all I can think about is the pastry I ate last night. I just wish I could deal with my shit without all my focus going to my food. Ive been in therapy consistently for about 10 years and my therapist is amazing and I very much recognise my patterns but day to day it doesnt make them any easier. I know logically I need to be compassionate to myself and that its 1000x harder to lose weight when ur body is stressed but I honestly just have so much drama with my family idk when its gonna end. Even when Im not actively stressed Im processing my trauma and its so hard. I hear about GLP1s and how they help with food noise and thats honestly all I want, I just want my decisions to not feel so loaded all the time. But morally (i know) im at a conflict. I’m not obese by any means, Im overweight but still within standard sizing. I exercise very consistently and always have, its just food I have a terrible relationship with and Im so over it. Any anecdotes or advice would be very much appreciated, thank you!