Losing 25 pounds would not make the guy I love like me back
5'7 CW-150lb GW-130lb
This feels so surreal to type out and understand, like this fact was always there, set in stone, like an elephant in the room that I couldn't see.
For as long as 4 years, I have liked my best friend and I somehow convinced myself that if I had been a little bit better and somewhat smaller, he would like me back.
I hung out with him after ages last week and realised, his eyes don't light up when they see me the way mine do when I see him.I will never be the first person he looks at after telling a goofy as fuck joke, and that is not on me in any way because he just doesn't like me like that.
I gotta lose weight for me, for the person who loves running but gets tired easily, for the girl who wants to look hot and party a lot in college, for having enough endurance to dance the whole night and for feeling better about myself.