I relapsed after 7 months and blew my entire savings in five days.
Currently feeling really sick. I went home just barely, I have $30 to my name for the week, I'm not in debt but I feel like I am because of the losses. I played slots, blackjack, roulette, craps, I lost and I lost and I lost and I lost, I kept playing though, I didn't say no.
I was considering selling my PS5 but I know I'd gamble that money too, so I can't. I don't want to give you guys the numbers but I'm giving them to my therapist tomorrow. I drank so much over the last four days, more than I thought I could possibly drink, and it surely didn't help.
I never felt like I was on top of this thing through that timeframe, and that's what's scary. I always knew that the urge to go back was there and sure enough all it took was a few days to throw away any progress I'd made. This addiction sucks.