u/PinkFlurffyUnicorns

That's my fear. I might just be playing into the jealous bitch stereotype, but at times it can feel that way. Like when I eat 2 muffins and am picking at my plate and my friend sees and goes " eat a muffin" and I go "I already had 2" and she goes "so eat a third" in a supportive tone. What could be her motivation for saying that when she knows I'm trying to diet, it's not exactly starving myself to not eat a third muffin. She's also offered me junk food that she doesnt eat with no prompting multiple times when I'm over and looked disappointed when I say no. Again there's probably more innocent reasons for all of this and I'm being paranoid, but sometimes it feels like she wants me to stay ugly, like when I mentioned that I'm still trying to lose weight and she was like "I thought you said you were gonna stop" I literally never said that, I'll stop when I'm no longer the chubby friend in the group. Even if this is true, I wouldn't break up with a friend for a thought crime like that, she wouldn't intentionally be trying to sabotage my weight loss as opposed to subconsciously not liking the idea of it, but I do kind of feel like I'm just being jealous, so I'm wondering if this is something other women have struggled with from my perspective or know what it's like from her perspective.

About a week ago my (19f) mom bought a bunch of chips. My natural reaction is to immediately eat as many as I can, but for some reason I opened the bag of chips, started eating it, and a few chips in I suddenly realized I wasn’t actually hungry, I just felt like I had to eat the chips because they were in front of me. I didn’t need the chips, they aren’t even that good. So I stopped eating and gave the rest of the bag to my brother. I’ve literally never stopped eating mid chip bag before. And I haven’t eaten any chips since then. What’s more, I haven’t been all that hungry. I used to try to make myself fast and always fail, but now i don’t even need to do that, I eat a small breakfast or lunch and I get bored and don’t need any more until supper time. I eat an ice cream sandwich and instead of immediately going to find another one the second I finish I’m thinking that it would be fine if it was half the size. Like I still get hungry, but way less often and it’s way easier to make it go away by just eating something small or ignoring it. Even my emotional eating, I was in a bad mood last night and I went to the fridge and ate a handful of fried onions and then I was like “screw this I know I’m emotional eating right now and I actually don’t need to do this, I can be in a bad mood and not eat” and then I just left. I’ve even been voluntarily eating junk food now, not just in hungry delusion. It’s like I trust myself to stop now so it’s not an issue. It was probably mostly water weight but I lost like 5 pounds this week. I don’t know what changed except that I suddenly realized I don’t need to eat a food just because it’s in front of me. But I’m scared my hunger is gonna come back stronger than ever. Has this ever happened to anyone? If so do you know how quickly it goes away or what makes it go away or how to make it stay?

Furthermore, a character can be completely morally righteous and still be complex. A complex character’s motivations, desires, and conflicts can’t be completely described easily in a couple brief sentences. Additionally, just because a character is complex or simple, doesn’t mean they’re well or poorly written. If a character succeeds on multiple fronts such as accomplishing their role in the story, having a natural and consistent character arc and character dynamics, having character driven motivations and actions rather than plot driven ones, successfully communicating the themes that have been tied to them, introducing the audience to a diverse perspective within the story, and holding the audience’s interest, then they’re a well written character regardless of if they’re difficult to explain or not. I hate when people throw the phrase complex character to dodge character criticism and shut down character discourse before it gets interesting. I also hate when people use it as a stand in for well written character.

I havent payed my balance for spring semester yet and I'm getting increasingly stressed about it. I was severely depressed and anxious last year, but my parents encouraged me toregister for spring semester anyway because otherwise I'd be doing nothing (I wanted to find a job, but I wasn't having luck because I don't have any connections in this neighborhood, I've lived or boarded somewhere else my whole life. Anyway I missed most of the classes anyway and avoided everything for the whole year. I think the pressure of being financially responsible for myself and how expensive college is was too much for me and I shut down. All of my friends were studying abroad so I had no one to talk to all year and I was just in a bad place. Towards the end of the semester the college made me drop 2 classes because my attendance was so bad and I wasn't showing results. I'm used to this anxiety induced shut down and avoidance, it's been my whole life, and I'm pretty intelligent when it comes to academics even though I'm bad at everything else, so I always manage to scrape together good grades at the last possible moment by just teaching myself everything and turning in all the work late.

I never payed my balance because it was too stressful. Fall semester the balance was something like $6,000 for 4 classes counting scholarships and student loans I havent payed yet. Spring semester I registered for 5 classes and dropped 2 but I can't tell if I'm being charged for those classes or not. The balance is > $14,000 for 3 classes worth of credits. I don't know what happened to the student loans or aid, it's not being offered on the webpage, maybe it was per year not semester, but I can't pay $14,000 it's too much. And I received an email 9 days ago saying I need to pay the balance in 10 days, I definitely can't pay it in 10 days, I dont know what happens if I dont pay it in 10 days, I don't want to pay that much at all for 3 classes. And this is a religious college that I dont vibe with socially and doesnt offer an engineering degree which is what I actually want. If I end up paying that much money I'll be forced to complete the course because my parents wouldnt let me transfer as some of these classes probably wont transfer credits to a non religious college and its too much money to cut my losses. The more I think about that the less I want to go back to this stupid college. I've wasted so much of my parents money already. Maybe I should just take the easy way out and let the debt will resolve itself. I feel like I can't make any future plans until I resolve this I'm so stressed I don't know why anyone ever trusted me with money. I feel like my whole future is ruined because I'm stuck here and I'm gonna make my parents bankrupt if they have to pay off 14000 balance for 3 stupid classes, 2 of which I didnt even really need.

I know I'm a useless daughter no one needs to tell me that

Was curious to see if there were any edits to this song and how the lyrics would be interpreted, and I found this one. I ain't a shipper, but ts actually made me feel emotions.

"commander Smiiiith!" "I said advance goddamit!"

It's kind of interesting how informal they are though. Is there a lore explanation for why so many of them are referred to by first name?

I spent like 200 gems on the memento and because of some weird bug it didnt give me the ultranest. I reached out to support and they tried to gaslight me saying that it doesnt always give an ultranest. First of all it only gave 4 small nests and 2 gems which is less objects than it usually gives, second of all it was a clear bug that happened because i tapped the memento and it said not enough space and the only reason it would say that is for a 2 x 2 and i forgot about the ultra nest so i tapped it a few times and the not enough space notification suddenly went away without giving me anything even though i didnt move anything. There's no explanation for that besides a bug. Third of all even if they were telling the truth, which they werent, that is such a scam, why would the memento not give the major reward it lists its misleading bs? But either way they were lying because it was going to give it to me before the bug or there wouldnt have been a not enough space notification. I'm just annoyed at being ripped off, I think this is my cue to finally delete this app, and I kind of want people to join me because im a little pissed off, and youre all gonna get scammed sooner or later.

All of this doesnt even mention all the other annoying little bugs like portal upgrade randomly not registering you fulfilling the quest and the complete bs prize hunt that expects you to spend 400 gems when it used to give doable tasksthat you could play and the task wasnt just a more convoluted "buy our prizes"

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In the scene before the scene where Reiner writes directions into Annie's hand, Armin tells Jean and Reiner to put their hoods up so that she can't distinguish between them because she's looking for Eren. It's blink and miss, but right before Reiner pretends to attack Annie he pulls down his hood so she knows it's him, which is a really cool detail. Rewatch is so awesome because it's a completely different story once you know what's going on. It's so funny how obviously suspicious Reiner is on rewatch. He never has internal monologue, and is overly quick to make decisions that the other side characters loudly argue about and verbalize their opinions for.

I'm very open to having this view changed, I don't feel very strongly about it, but it just gives me the ick a little when demisexuals call themselves lgbtq. That sounds like preference or love language or something. I see how it can make dating more difficult, but a lot of things can make dating more difficult. Not everyone with any sort of unique sexuality is lgbtq. By that logic the bdsm community should be considered lgbtq, they get more judgement than demisexuals. It isn't considered socially deviant to be demisexual, no one is gonna discriminate against you for that, so it's strange that it's something you would feel the need to advertise as. What sort societal struggles and discrimination outside of compatibility do demisexuals face? People are attacked in the streets and denied jobs for just living their lives and being themselves, like so what if you feel attraction differently than the average person.

My sister insulted my appearance in detail so I insecurity posted online and asked Reddit if I was ugly. A bunch of people dm’d me asking if I sell. Lmao I never knew I give off “drug dealer”. It’s probably the insomnia, but I think it’s really funny. Glad I look cool enough to give off drug dealer and not basement dweller.

I(19f) was having family dinner with my parents and little siblings tonight and I blew up at them and ruined the night for everyone. I’ve been anxious about a lot of things for weeks perhaps longer and my sleep schedule has gone to hell and I just feel miserable all the time and I don’t know how to fix it, and I was irritated today. The problem is when I’m irritated no one really blames me for my outbursts because I’m well spoken and painfully honest and my family just always assumes I’m right. My words hold a lot of if not the most power in my family and I’m not exactly sure why. I hate it so much, I’m not smarter or a better person, but everyone acts like I am and I never receive consequences. It feels like I’m responsible to use that to make my family run more smoothly and love each other or whatever, but I don’t know what the hell I’m doing, I’m reacting to whatever messed up emotions I’m feeling just like anyone else is, I feel like every time I open my mouth I make everything worse and no one realizes it’s me that’s the problem.

Last night I couldn’t fall asleep and I was up all night spiraling about how I’m never going to be happy and then I fell asleep at like 8 am and woke up at 6 pm in a irritable mood that’s been coming on for days. At dinner tonight my mom said something and I got annoyed and my mom said

“why does everyone hate me” so I told her “no one hates you, everyone just hates interacting with you because we’re constantly on edge waiting for you to get upset about something. It’s quiet in the house or people are vining and then you come home and the house erupts into tantrums, no one has the patience for you constantly getting mad all the time. We get it you have reasons for getting mad, but it doesn’t change the fact that that’s why we don’t like talking to you” and then my mom starts listing all the things my little brothers do that stress her out and make her upset and I go “yeah and when you yell at them every time they don’t listen because it means nothing because it feels like even if they fixed that thing you would find 10 new things to yell about, so we all just tune you out” and then my dad was like “she’s being very naive but she’s right that maybe you should ask your kids to do something before you yell at them” and then I rounded on him and I was like

“yeah cuz it’s all her fault that we turned out bad” “and my dad was like “I visited my cousins house and I was so surprised when after the meal the kids cleaned up everything and washed all the dishes without even being asked. I didn’t know it was possible for kids to be so well behaved” and I was like “and I bet you were impressed that the parents had managed to find parenting methods that actually worked on their kids instead of trying the “yell at my kid over and over again until they do what I want to stop the noise” for years as if it would magically start working” and my dad was like “when you were little you were good kids” and I was like “I wonder what changed?” “Maybe if every one of your kids started out as good kids and then stopped listening to you as soon as they were old enough to stop being scared of you, that reflects on you on not some magic force that turns your kids evil. Maybe if you actually got to know your kids as people with feelings and lives and not just a culmination of flaws they had as children they would want to make you happy and there would be other reasons for them to respect you that carried into adulthood. The difference between us and those other kids is that not one of us feels like if we were struggling we could come to you for support. When we’re sad or lonely we don’t go “oh I’ll go to mommy and she’ll make it better, we don’t go to anyone. The reason the twins turned out the most well adjusted of all of us is because they’re the only ones who had people in their life everyone else grew up alone, and had to deal with all their problems themselves. But if we ever did have problems we would go to mommy not you” and my mom was crying and I think I’ve turned all my siblings against my parents and I stormed away to my room and immediately regretted saying any of that stuff and now I want to die.

I’m just so done with everyone and everything and all parents have flaws and some of that stuff might be true but I don’t know anyone else who would say such things to their parents, especially since it mostly came out of nowhere. I’m probably gonna apologize to them tomorrow, but I’m probably gonna do this again, I don’t notice how far I’m going in the moment and I need some other outlet aside from resenting my family. I need to grow up, but I feel so stuck in myself I don’t know how to change, I want my family to be happy, I want my little sister to grow up well adjusted and happier than me but every time I interfere I make things worse, I still feel like a little girl, I don’t know how to have healthy relationships let alone force other people to have healthy relationships. I don’t want my siblings to hate my parents because of me. I desperately want to move out, but I’m such a loser I can’t find a job or anything I’m just so tired.

I know Jinshi is beloved in this fandom, so dont worry I'm not here to slander the character, just for personal preference reasons I don't care for him. To put it simply, I dont think gay women are his target audience. I'm really interested in an anime with a bunch of smart well written women, where women are plot essential and not just token, but if this anime is mostly just about maomao and jinshi I'm gonna get bored. So yeah would y'all say this anime is primarily about maomao and jinshi, or are they b plot, and I should still watch this anime if I dont care for him?

I(19f) am absolutely mortified, I fear I may need to skip town for a couple of days.

I finished up the last of my finals a couple days ago, and because I am a major procrastinator, the work that had piled up to a minute before the deadline resulted in a severely fucked up sleep schedule. So because I have briefly lost the ability to fall asleep before 4 am, I've been up real late watching dnd campaigns on youtube.

For context I live in my parents home with my 4 siblings. So tonight at 2:30 am I was watching an episode with a *really* good kiss scene. It was so adorable, and I got really immersed in the moment, and I am generally not one to get into the romance subplots, but the sapphic ones have more of an affect on me, and this one was so awesome, and I did not notice myself doing this because I was wearing headphones and distracted, but after a minute I realized I was kicking my feet and squealing. Like, really loudly squealing. Like loud enough to probably wake up my whole family.

After I did that I panicked and prayed nobody heard me, but a minute later there's a knock on my door and I hear the annoyed and/or concerned voice of my dad saying some muffled things through my door. I dont know what my squeals sounded like, so either it sounded like I was reacting to a video/laughing, and everyone is now pissed off at me, or it sounded like I was under attack/screaming and I gave everyone a scare.

I panicked some more and said sorry to my door like 10 times as if it was some sort of spell to ward off my dad and make him forget this ever happened, and at some point the muffled voice went away so I assume he got the message that I wasn't under attack or whatever he thought was happening. And now I am absolutely mortified and unsure how to approach this dilemma. They're all gonna confront me about it tomorrow and ask me what happened, and I absolutely under no circumstances can explain to them that I woke everyone up because I was up at 2:30 am watching people roleplay characters kissing each other.

I've got 3 plans right now, Im not sure how this is gonna play out: if they approach me one by one I gaslight them. I gaslight them all. They heard no sounds, they had a weird dream, I don't know what theyre talking about, perhaps I had a weird dream and did some things last night that I don't remember. Who can say. Or: I wake up after all have them have left for school/work, I text my mom that I'm staying at a friend, I hop on a train and go to the neighboring state and stay at my friends house for a couple of days and come home once theyve forgotten about it. Or: I had a dream about a giant spider in my room... Idk if the noises I made match the alibi the alibi so its a risk, but lowest effort. Idk I'm freaking out maybe this won't be such a big deal tomorrow. Anyways yeah I fucked up.

TL;DR: I accidentally squealed very loudly watching a cute kiss scene in a dnd campaign, and woke up my whole family, leading to unknown future consequences.