Single moms suck
Everyone talks about how you shouldn't date a woman with kids as if its always our fault. Like there must be something wrong with women for a man to abandon them and their child. Ive been in a relationship with my partner for 4 years and recently had a baby. Since having the baby we fight almost constantly. Ive done a lot for this man. I love this man unconditionally. Ive listened, communicated, and cherished this man. Birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, new jobs, everything was celebrated. I always went all out with whatever money I made. Random gifts. Always loyal, never strayed, never so much as glanced an another man in any inappropriate way. No corn on my phone, no other men in my phone, always told him where I was or who I was with. I never went out, not to clubs not to bars, no where i shouldnt be. Always had his clothes ready, his lunch ready, his dinner ready. I would wake up before him just to get everything ready for him even if we were fighting. I helped him with everything and anything he needed. Ive had my immature moments of being overly jealous and insecure. I wasnt perfect and I know how to hold myself accountable for things ive said and done. To my knowledge the things I would do that would upset him would be me not wanting him to go to bars or clubs or casinos. Or finding stuff on his phone. Yet we had agreed we could go on each other's phones so not sure why he would be upset when I was given the okay. Anyways, now he have a baby and we've almost broken up maybe a total of 5 times since the baby was born (hes 2 months old) most of it was because im "controlling" and "manipulative" for wanting him to stay home with me during early postpartum. He isnt working so I thought it would be easier for him to stay home but no he wanted to go out with friends, go to bars, go to clubs, and casinos and come home after 12am while I was struggling with healing and a newborn. For some reason I forgive him, I make excuses like maybe its all the pressure of being a dad and not having a job. But then what about me. I just became a mom, its all new to me too, I cant work yet. I dont have a car. And im suffering but I dont treat him like shit. When i had the baby in the hospital I let him sleep. I didnt sleep until I got released 2 days after having the baby. I was exhausted. My partner wants to leave me or at least i can see it in his eyes and hear it in his voice. Every time we argue about something its "i never wanted a kid to begin with" or "ill just leave" and its not that im scared to be alone its just im watching the partner I thought would be in my life forever, fade away. So I dont agree with "oh watch out she has kids" because its not always our fault. Im not a single mom but im close to being one. As much as I want to hold onto this relationship ultimately its up to him whether he wants to stay with me or not. I know it sounds pathetic of me but I really love this man. Hes my first everything thats what makes it a lot harder to let go. We were best friends for 4 years before we started dating and then almost at the 5 year mark of our relationship. We've been in each other's life for almost 9 years.