saw her on social media on accident... can't stop thinking about it
my ex and I broke up after 3 years together this past July. I've done a good job of no contact since August: no looking at photos, no social, no talking, I have NO desire to contact her because the way she treated me at the end was cruel and practically an avoidant discard. SO much of me HATES her. I also recently started dating someone else who is amazing and we are actually aligned on our values, we're both AuDHD so we understand each other soooo deeply and so much better than my ex did (she didn't understand what it's like to be autistic).
However, yesterday I saw a photo of my ex accidentally on someone else's story at a wedding with all of our old college friends (I'm not friends with any of those people anymore either) and it felt like a punch to the gut. Like I don't want her back. She wasn't actually a good partner, despite my brain trying to convince me that she was my person back then, there was so much of an avoidant-anxious dynamic that was awful. I'm assuming this is normal so maybe I'm just venting, but like I'm just SO TIRED!!! I want to erase her from my brain.