There is no graffiti, Daniel.
You really can't see it, can you?
2 years waiting for apologies that never came. 2 years of waiting for change that never came. What did you think would happen when you kept repeating hurtful behaviour and refused to acknowledge it? You still have no idea how bad it was that you wanted us to be friends after everything ended.
2 1/2 years now without any accountability, apology or change and you don't seem to understand how every single interaction I've had with you since December has done nothing but add more hurt and pain to the pile.
You chose to keep damaging our relationship. You chose to keep hurting me. You chose to sacrifice me for the sake of your own emotional comfort. Is it any wonder that the only memories I take with me are bad? You can remember the good parts all you like because you actually HAD good parts. You had someone who stayed despite the horrific treatment you dished out. You had someone who was willing to put the time and effort into self instigated behavioural change. You had someone that tried.
I did not have that. I had 2 years of emotional abuse that you refuse to acknowledge. You are not the good guy. You are the person who left me with pstd. You represent nothing but pain to me. You are the person I don't want to look at or see. You are the person I want to forget ever existed.
It didn't have to be like this. For 9 months I've been telling you what I needed to move forward with you. The ball has been yours the whole time but you chose to leave the court.