upset over not understanding myself.
i think i might have osdd. i don't like labeling myself as having a disorder unless I'm diagnosed because many people don't see that as being valid. i very often need labels to understand myself, i beg for diagnoses and assessments because I'm confused on what's 'wrong' with me and i hate it so much..
lately I've been switching from a "i definitely have a dissociative disorder" 'mindset' to a "I don't have anything like that and i should stop being dramatic" 'mindset'. I'm not sure if that's normal or not.
also i have a problem with 'zoning out' but I don't know if it is dissociation or if there's even a difference between being zoned out and dissociating (that's just me being ignorant)
I feel really unwell at the moment, i have a therapy appointment tomorrow (monday) and i hope to bring it up again because if I don't get an assessment asap i might actually start freaking out. but another problem is that I don't know how to bring this up to my therapist. any advice?