My husband and I have been married for about 2 months and per his request we haven’t told anyone (besides him telling the pastor and his wife in premarital counseling). The pastor advised us to pray about telling people because it would be best for our walk but my husband won’t budge.
We got engaged and told everyone. He brought me a beautiful ring and proposed in a cute intimate way with just him and I. 2 months after getting engaged we married through justice of the peace. Truthfully we were struggling with fornication and he had the idea to be married through justice of peace. I was against it at first but I warmed up to the idea and we did it. We talked about not telling anyone beforehand and again I wasn’t comfortable with it but ended up saying I would respect his wishes.
Now my spirit just feels wrong every time I lie or deceive someone by calling him or referring to him as my husband. I want people to know and I want to freely say what it is especially to my closest friends but I don’t.
We’ve had conversations and he just stands firm on his stance. Before telling the pastor he wanted to keep it between God, him and I which eased me some but now he says just him and I. I feel conflicted and agitated by this. It’s making me question his character and my own and it’s really doing a number on me. Please any help or support can help.