I love my system
Sometimes I forget that not every DID system feels like a family, because ours honestly does.
We all have very different personalities, roles, ages, and ways of coping, but there’s still this underlying feeling of “these are my people.”
Jeremiah is basically the system’s exhausted cowboy dad. He talks like he walked out of an old western and acts like everyone’s protector. He’s the one who keeps us moving during medical issues, exhaustion, stress, and panic. Internally, he’s the type to quietly carry someone to bed instead of asking if they’re okay fifteen times.
Ada is quiet and observant. She barely talks sometimes, but she notices everything. Animals absolutely love her. She’s the kind of person who makes a room feel calmer just by existing in it. She also has an extremely dry sense of humor that catches people off guard.
Mia is one of our littles and somehow simultaneously the sweetest and emotionally wisest person in the system. She loves glitter, stuffed animals, soft things, and being held, but she’s also weirdly insightful in a way that makes everyone stop and think for a second.
Mandy is our verbal fighter. If someone hurts us, she’s ready to throw hands emotionally within about 0.2 seconds. Candy is kind of her opposite and counterpart at the same time: glamorous, fashion-obsessed, sparkly, dramatic, but still incredibly protective underneath all of it.
And then there’s me, somewhere in the middle, trying to coordinate everybody while loving all of them very much.
I know DID is formed from horrible circumstances, and I would never romanticize that part. But I think sometimes people forget that systems can also contain love, family, humor, loyalty, inside jokes, comfort, and genuine care for each other.
I don’t know. I just love my system a lot.