First breakup
19F Going through my first real breakup and I genuinely feel like I'm going crazy.
Everything was going perfect and I'm not just saying that we treated each other so well and three days before she literally surprised me with this movie I really wanted to see. But then she just broke up with me I still feel like I'm in that moment and ever since I feel like my life is just moving in slow motion.
First she said she thought she was ready for a relationship but realized she wasn't but it's just weird because why would you do all those things with me including saying I love you and spending weeks together.
To make things worse we sort of dragged things on. We did the no contact for two weeks but then ended up having sex again which I know was bad. But honestly even though I knew it would hurt I just wanted to be close with her again. This time though she made it clear she didn't want to get back together with me because she doesn't think it's meant to be.
Ever since I last saw her I just feel insane all I think about is her and it's like I'm obsessive and I can't stop crying. I just always feel like I always love harder and love more than the other person. And it hurts so much because I love love and relationships but this breakup has me thinking I never want to fall in love again.