To put it briefly, my partner is tired. Not of me but for me? He’s been the most supportive person to me during my episodes and is the only reason I get through them. But I feel his exhaustion and I completely understand and I just want him to not burn out.
He is in therapy thankfully and has a social life outside of me but it’s hard when he comes home and I’m in PMDD mode.
I just got referred to gynaecology because my psychiatrist wasn’t super helpful. I’m already on antidepressants due to my BPD and they really only help in non luteal phases. I’m going to try to get chemical menopause but my last gynaecologist didn’t take me seriously and said to “reduce stress” so fingers crossed I get a better one this time.
I just want him to be okay and to not be the cause of his stress but I don’t really know what else to do cause it’s just a waiting game right now. We have a super healthy and loving relationship but I’m still scared I lose it and I wouldn’t even blame him. He assures me he’s here for the good and bad times but I’d like there to be less bad times.