u/Horror-View9018

Everything feels great as of now.

I went for a swim with my friends. To be honest, it's a seperate issue, but I felt a bit sad as I was rhinking about a lot of things during so. Either way, the swim certainly distracted me from even thinking about relapsing.

However, I do gotta admit, once I was home, I got tempted. I responded with lifting weights, which did help ease it out, but it came back again. I was able to cool it down on my own though.

And one thing: I cleaned my room, finally!

It was disgusting—not the type to be super messy, but it had a lot of dust along it. I have allergic rhinitis and I don't find that amusing hahaha.

Either way, I'm happy I'm more focused on these things rather than… watching porn and letting it eat over my life. I'm gonna be honest though: those urges, I really do want to consider. A part of me is looking for the feeling—the feeling of watching those videos, the feeling of giving myself pleasure while being a spectator. It's hard, but I know I got it.

Onto Day 4! Go Lakers!

This day was a lot more easy. I did some exercise and started watching a series named Brooklyn 99. Not to go for from the topic, but it's genuinely amazing. I'm not a fan of romantic movies/TV shows, so a comedic one is quite refreshing.

I'll keep this up!

I'm a Male, and I've been exposed to pornography and have been masturbating ever since I was nine years old. Now that I'm older, I made the hard decision to quit. I deleted all my files, uninstalled all the apps that reminded me to do it, unfollowed and unjoined any porn-related group/individual.

It's Day 1 (last time was yesterday). It feels very empty. I've been exercising, and although it does fill up the space, after doing so, I feel the same emptiness again. I feel the urges and want to relapse so bad, but I keep on reminding myself who I am doing this for.

I'm doing this not just for mysef, but for my partner. We haven't participated in any intimate (or should we say sexual) activity, so as much as possible, I want to save that just for her.

It's a hard journey, and I would appreciate some kind words and even some advice :) I plan on sharing my journey here on Reddit so that I get distracted as well (I love writing myself a good essay).