I (35m) went on a date with a girl (33f) I've been hanging out with lately (a few months now) and it started off so well then quickly went sour. She wants to be my GF however I feel like we do not know enough about each other, which is how this sour date unraveled.
Everything was going well until I mentioned my insecurity about jealousy. It's a long standing issue but I've been working on it tbh this thread has helped out very much. I said when I was younger I hacked a GFs Myspace and that I broke up with a girl due to her talking to a guy. I mentioned that it's a soft spot for me and that's when she began to say that I may be a control freak and that she doesn't trust me any longer and went as far to compare me to a girl lol. She had very bad body language and there were plenty of awkward silences. We left the date with a kiss but I am feeling down about our future. She is VERY closed off and has not revealed much about herself. She doesn't talk to family about issues amongst themselves while I am VERY transparent about issues with mine. I feel like we have a wide gap of what it means to be in a relationship. My ex of 14 years was much more aligned with me and this worries me.
I am wondering if I am valid about this onset depression and would like to know if I should do something about it such as watch a self help video or potentially break things off before they get told serious. It felt really bad to hear her say those things and quite frankly irritated me. I am starting to wonder if this theme will continue and expose the fact that we aren't really well for each other.
TIdr; Date is emotionally closed off, makes fun of me when I open up, but wants to date and cares about me and my family.