Scared I’m miscarrying again
TW: Mention of living child
I’m feeling so heartbroken and upset. I am so so grateful that after my 18 week tfmr I had a rainbow baby. I since had a miscarriage and am now spotting in my subsequent pregnancy, it’s brown and pink and I had sex which I now so regret two days ago so the doctors say it’s normal. My miscarriage started with pink and brown too. I’m supposed to fly in a few days and I’m now terrified I’ll have a loss in another state. I’m just so tired of this. My cousin is pregnant and her biggest complaint is that she’s SCARED of throwing up…she’s not nauseous just scared she will be. She was asked at 7 weeks if she’d accept gifts and was like “of course why not?” And my mom said people like to wait and she was like “oh why?!” And of course she’ll be totally fine, which I want for her, but like WTF! And I know some people have no living kids so I am eternally grateful and feel so blessed because some peoples journeys are even harder. I just needed to vent to people that probably get it. I feel so unattached to this pregnancy. I don’t feel as bloated either and I’m scared it’s a missed miscarriage or one that’s starting. I’m only 5 weeks so I guess it could be chemical still.