u/Horrorbythenumbers

Hi everyone turning 40 soon and i feel so depressed and low and im lashing out at the one friend I still have because hes always busy and i get that he has his own life but then i get paranoid and think hes avoiding me, my partner is understanding but I feel like a failure ive no job (I care full time for my partner) no notable contribution to the world, ive no biologically children but have raised three daughters to adulthood the eldest coming from my late wife. I've no social life and struggle to make friends and I loose intrest in hobbies and move on to the next one within months so im never in one hobby long enough to make friends. I know 40 is just a number but im over the halfway point and I dont know what to do.