10 days in, I’m worried the quit is too smooth
I started smoking during Covid to cope with the terrifying anxiety. Since, I’ve smoked a couple of joints a day. The longest I’ve gone without prior to this (not on holiday) was 5 days. But every time I stopped earlier I knew it was temporary and I’d get back to it. Nonetheless those 5 days were terrible with nightmares, mood swings and irritability.
Last week I just woke up and felt like I’d had enough. I want to have energy, I wanna lose weight(crazy binge eating after weed) and I want to do more than spend my evenings watching TV.
So last Sunday I decided to quit for good. My husband still smokes (in the balcony) but I have zero desire even if I accompany him out.
I’m surprised how easy it’s been to say no. Earlier when I’d stopped and he’d still be smoking it was impossible for me to control the urge. This time around, I had a few bad nights of sleep but nothing compared to before. I’m worried it’s too easy. I’m worried it’s gonna hit me at some point and it’s going to be worse than before.
I definitely have a lot more energy and it’s like this zen energy. I’m not getting annoyed. I’m getting more stuff done. I’m cooking everyday. This is not usual for me. I’m very lazy in general.
So, my question is does it get better and then worse? Usually the trend is it gets worse before it gets better. But does the opposite happen sometimes?
P.S. after typing this whole thing out I feel less worried. My mind is telling me why do you need to ask the world about it - see what happens yourself. No need to psych about something that’s not happened yet. Lol this is very unlike me self-talk. 🤷🏻♀️