Is there anything that can change my mindset at least?
I'm a 23 year old involuntary celibate, I would say, and I've recently felt numb and have been having a bad mindset where I just think about the black pill. I'll admit getting into the blackpill at 16 has really screwed me up, and I wish It would of never happened, but in a way, it also helped me change my looks from what I could. 7 years later still no girlfriend never had one, I have no friends left because they all moved away and a lot of them talked behind my back anyways. I'm out of college so I believe that making friends is basically over. I have a job but I can't even concentrate anymore because I think 24/7 about looksmaxxing or blackpill I start panicking what my future will look like if I don't try with everything I have now to change myself. I am trying I really am I've tried eating healthy and working out more but as soon as I get even slightly remotely happy about something, something else comes and messes it up like I've gotten a ton of acne recently and it's been leaving marks which I can't get rid of which stresses me out even more because it just doesn't help with my face. I've tried to cope with playing video games, but it's just so boring playing alone I usually quit after 20 minutes. I've tried learning new side hustles online like affiliate marketing to make more money just so I can hope that soon I can get double jaw surgery or something else to fix my face. I'm trying to go outside more and find things to do but im not exactly sure what I can do. I live like an hour away from the nearest city and even then i wouldnt know what to do if i lived in a city. If anyone has any advice let me know I won't stop looksmaxxing because I have the chance to still do it but it's really hard when having such a negative mindset