So I'm asexual and that was fine and all for a long time, but as I got older I had some stuff come up and it's made me resent being asexual at times. I'm currently in one of those periods where I feel really sad about being asexual.
Part of it is that I know I likely won't have success with romance and that's a crushing feeling sometimes. But the other part is that it keeps ruining things I enjoy. I'm sex repulsed, which is fine, but I have an issue where sexual content ruins things and characters I love. My brain I guess associates sex with being bad, so if something I enjoy has sex in it or a character I love has sex, it upsets me a lot and kinda ruins it, and it makes me feel bitter honestly.
I know this isn't a good way to think, I fully recognize I have an issue here and I'm trying to work on it, but I'm wondering if anyone has any advice for dealing with negative feelings about being asexual?