u/Hot-Camp6758

I had a great career. Incredible hobbies. Good coworkers.
Did weed pens for 4-5 years and was okay on those. Added microdosing psilocibyn and did 2 macro doses. The first was great and the second my girlfriend had just moved and it sent me into a depression and gave me psychosis. Got extremely lonely and paranoid. Spent 4 months applying to other jobs, got one, and lost it in 3 weeks. It’s been 5 months since then and I’m still not myself. Anyone have any advice? I’m back living with family and focusing on spiritual growth. It’s so hard to forgive myself.