I just gotta get this off my chest and probably get help later or answers
lately I've been getting so angry, over little things, I noticed tha my anger went from little silent cries here and there but now and lately I've gotten so angry I hurt myself and i wanna hurt others it's gotten so bad I have really bad headaches, I don't wanna eat, I feel sick and my chest hurts. I lose control at times and even lose my anger so bad I throw things and I have broken my walls so much, I tore my own clothes at times and broke my own shoes, and at times even fought with my siblings so bad I hurt them I don't mean to I love them so much but I lose control and feel like a absolute asshole and I see my actions obviously say I don't love them but I do, there was times I just went to bed but now I can't even handle simple talking or listening to music without getting even more agitated. I don't tell my mom or anybody but I'm sure it's very obvious to them that I get angry, but every time I tried my mom brushed it off and says it's a phase or tells me to calm the fuck down and shut the fuck up. I got no clue what to do, I wanna get help but it's hard. I rather just post it here and whatever.