1 year post-breakup still not over it what’s wrong with me?
I (25M) got dumped by my fiancé about a year ago. On my birthday about a year ago my fiancé had broken up with me, now that my birthday is coming back up I can’t get her out of my head. It’s been 1 year of therapy, going out with friends, self help books, hobbies, self improvement and anything and everything in between. I got my Masters Degree, promoted at work, lost 45 pounds, got closer to my friends and family and still think about her. Everyone’s been asking about my birthday and it feels like it’s no longer my birthday, but the anniversary of the worst day of my life. I was begging, pleading and shredded any form of self reliance, dignity and self respect to atoms. I’ve never felt less human than when I was begging her to stay with me, and I lost any all respect I had for myself that day. I haven’t heard from her in a year but I still think about her in the little moments. It’s hard when you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with someone that they were going to witness every milestone and always be there, to all of a sudden have that reality and that future torn away from you. What’s wrong with me?