Boyfriend hid contact with his "best friend." Then I found a Reddit post calling her his girlfriend
I need unbiased opinions because I genuinely feel like I'm losing my mind trying to make sense of this.
A few months ago I started dating a guy from. When we first got close, he had a female best friend.At that time, they were just friends. He did not know she had romantic feelings for him.
Later she confessed that she was in love with him. This completely messed him up emotionally. He repeatedly told me that he did not have romantic feelings for her and that he was fully into me. However, he also kept saying that she had been a huge part of his life and that he couldn't bear losing her completely.
Eventually he ended things with me because he felt he couldn't handle the situation and couldn't lose her from his life. Even then he continued insisting that he wasn't romantically interested in her and that the issue was losing an important person, not losing a romantic partner.
We ended, and didn't talk for a few days. About a week later we slowly started talking again. We got close again and eventually kissed. It was both of our first kisses.
2-3 days after we kissed he told me he had blocked her everywhere because the situation had become impossible and because she and I couldn't coexist in his life.
Since then we've been together and dating officially for around 2 months now.
Recently, completely by coincidence, I found a Reddit post from his account (I'm 100% certain it's his account).
In that post he describes this same girl as his girlfriend, someone he loves deeply, someone he can't imagine life without. He further said he can't lose her and that the thought of losing her hurts more than he can explain. The post is basically about how he loves her deeply but feels incompatible and trapped in the relationship. In the post he said he wanted physical affection and intimacy and that this relationship lacked those things. No hugs, no kissing, nothing.
Yet at the same time, he was actively pursuing intimacy and being physically affectionate with me.
The reason this is so confusing is that he has always made me feel so loved. He told me he wants a future with me, continuously making me feel pretty especially if I'm feeling insecure about myself. He continuously shows a lot of affection, care and emotional investment. He says he is lucky to have me. And he has expressed his love for me so many times.
So now I genuinely don't know what to believe.
If she was really "just a friend," then why hide ongoing contact from me? Why tell me she was blocked everywhere when she wasn't. why call her girlfriend and write an entire relationship post about her? On the other hand, if she wasn't "just a friend" and there really was a romantic relationship or emotional relationship there, then that's literally cheating.
If you were in my position, what conclusion would you draw from all of this?