u/Hot-Month-8810

I feel as if you’re doing it on purpose. The proximity, but distance. You’re somehow always in my view. Always on my mind. I suck at reading signs; I’m autistic. I suck at getting closer to people. I suck at showing my interest towards you. I didn’t mean the blank stare. I wanted to say hi back, I wanted to tap your shoulder and talk about something. Just to hear your voice. I’m sorry about my cowardice. I never had this feeling growing up. It feels like I’m overthinking our every move. I wish it was mutual. God can it be? Can we start over? What’s your name? How’s it spelled? Was it your mother or father who gave you that name? Can I start by asking meaningful questions; or is it far too late for that?