i really need help
Hey, 13 f here. I've been struggling with severe anhedonia for about 2 years and honestly i just want to die atp. Im starting to not eat, drink water or do basic human tasks because i just feel so numbed down and find it useless. I've heard about dopamine types of antidepressants but the problem is I am a minor, my psychiatrist can't put me on this type of medicine. I only have accessibility to use 3 types of antidepressants which are all.. SSRI. I'm on flouxetine right now and to be fair, I feel like my anhedonias just getting worse. I don't have basic human empathy nor ability to distract myself like others can you know? Distracting as in games, books, puzzles, drawing... I haven't found out WHY I have this debilitating anhedonia, what is the weirdest that it happened suddenly, one day I was just drawing and felt weird and bored I was so confused on what was going on, but if I had to guess it's probably due to chronic stress, I think my nervous system shut down due to this But something inside me feels like curing my chronic anxiety won't cure my anhedonia either, but I'm not completely sure yk? But good thing is that im atleast trying to get help + I'm probably getting anxiety reducing medicine from my doctor.