u/Hot-Policy3496

I know people are gonna read this and be like... "What the fuck." And I agree... But I just want to understand this.

Is it common to watch sexual content when hurting yourself? Why do I enjoy it that way? And I do not enjoy hurting myself, I usually just do it when I have lots of things on mind... But when doing it with something besides me like an explicit video... It makes me feel better faster. Can someone explain this? Is it just me of there's other people out there hiding this? Is it some kind of gruesome fetish? Please be respectful with your answers... Thank you anyway!