u/HotJellyfish8247

Title. I have gained 20kgs during 3 years on meds. Doctors provided no alternative, told me to eat less and move more. Lost all the extra weight once I stopped taking them. But being a fatty stays with you forever - the stretch marks, the loose skin, saggy breasts. Oh, the meds also destroyed my sexual function and gave me insomnia. It stayed with me even after weaning off. I just hate my body, and the worst is it wasn't even my fault.

I was moved to a different team recently. So I have to learn new domain knowledge, new language (moved from C++ to python). My company openly says we should burn tokens, and vibe code, it's only speed that matters. I picked up a new task. I really tried to embrace agentic AI, I had skills written that plan the feature, analyse existing codebase, subagents that guard quality of code, compliance with a spec etc. First problem, this huge system is slow as hell. Secondly, I then have to sift through 3000 lines of code, only to discover, it's all slop, and it shouldn't even be 3000 lines. I feel like I'm also not learning anything. But if I stop burning dollars on cursor, it will negatively impact my performance review. Also, anyone around me does not care, they just push that slop to review, so my 500 lines of good code written in 3 days will look worse on paper than 2000 lines of slop written in one day. Oh, also, I have no structured onboarding because we have ai now, so it is not needed, apparently.

I am just so tired. I like AI as a tool, I am interested in introducing AI systems to my workflow, I'm just tired of this AI psychosis.