Anxiety and how to deal with that?
Hey everyone
I just finished my TC chemo two weeks ago, now I have a week off treatment and will start radiotherapy next week (15 times). I had my lumpectomy in December and my tumor was very small (8mm) grade 2. Still, I can't help being anxious about everything. Last weekend I went to Oslo with work colleagues and I found this statue of a woman called Cecilie Flatval who was diagnosed with incurable (metastasis) breast cancer. It was a powerful statue to see it like that. I read more about her story, that she was diagnosed with cancer and did all her treatment, and was happy that she was done and everything, only to get shattering news that her cancer has spread. She passed away in 2023.
I can't help thinking about "what if" and I am sure you all have. How do you cope with it? The dark thoughts? I keep myself occupied to not think about this, but there are times when I thought what if it comes back, and I don't have much time to live. It makes me want to cancel any celebration party I have planned (I have planned one in August) and live under the radar just in case, but I know that's not living. I know this is a common problem for breast cancer patients.
See the instagram reel about the statue (not mine) https://www.instagram.com/reels/DTQOBOIjGSs/