u/Hot_Economist640

Today I have a office party our whole team is there no girl only boys is there in team.

After reaching the venue (cafe) i enjoyed for first 1 hour then suddenly something hit me like what u am even doing here.

There drink veg and non veg food. I don't drink don't eat non veg. Is that because of this or something else is hitting me harder not able to figure out what's getting wrong with me this days.

Now days I am not listening to any philosophy.

Is that also happen with other or something is off with me

I listen to osho Sadhguru and read geeta, Ramaya and now on ramcharitmanas I don't figure it out what's wrong happen it out.

What suddenly triggered me for masturbat* and that both idea that it's good and bad come to my mind I was like confused like hell.

What should I do to figure it out what u needed.