Tomorrow is our thesis defence and i regret my thesis groupmates
tomorrow is our thesis defence and im scared and worried. Im a 4th yr graduating (hopefully) student in an arts program and our thesis requires us to make a creative output. We are allowed to have groups up to three, and the groupmates i picked were relatively close friends back in my 2nd yr. We hanged out alot almost everyday and i thought that being groupmates with them would be okay since i thought we communication wouldnt be an issue.
Fast forward to 4th yr, we had our "falling off" and even though we are still friends and still talk, its not the same as it was before. We dont talk much about our thesis and i can tell that they are avoidant talking about thesis, ( and it made me avoidant about it too, ik its not a good habit to take). Because of the avoidance we didnt have much time to talk about our thesis, like delegate the workload, who is going make who. the only time we were able to come together was when we were cramming our final output and we stayed out late. but after that it was back to being avoidance.
I was paranoid about the situation of the creative output that i had to go out and find materials for it. I was tasked with the designs of our creative output and its not easy. I tried to reach out to them for help but they left me hanging, and when i check on socials i see their stories going out as if im not stressing over the output. I feel drained and i have no energy to continue, and its sad because even if i continue, i feel like it wont be enough. Even though our manuscript was passed, it has a few missing topics and no mockups of our creative output (until now)
So much thoughts and worry clouded my mind like, will i be able to graduate if we fuck up the defence? do i have to start over if we fail? what to say in front of our panelists regarding our missing work and low quality creative output? its stressing me out.