u/Hot_Raisin7157

I hate Mother’s Day. It is the one day I feel the worst. I have sent my daughter to daycare the whole maternity leave so I feel bad about that. She is medically complex so I also am scared I did something in my pregnancy to cause it. Then there is the other guilt… am I doing enough? Did I get her all the help she needs? Am I spending enough time with her. I played on my phone a lot today after spending yesterday together and I just feel like crap. There are so many better moms. Not my mom though. She is still married to the guy who inappropriately touched me. So u know I can’t even ignore me and celebrate my own mom today.

F today.

Went to ER at community north and there was a dude tweaking talking about hating everyone and screaming!! It caused a hole commotion. I was scared and haven’t been around that since corrections. The nurse was just like this is “some Friday night shit on a Monday.” Man, they aren’t scared of nothing and deal with too much.

I have mad respect for nurses.