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I’m mixed Emirati and Filipino, and honestly, growing up with two different backgrounds wasn’t always easy. I faced a lot of bullying in high school because of the way I looked and because I was mixed. There were times when I felt like I didn’t fully fit in with either side, and it really affected how I saw myself.
Now I’m curious are there other mixed people here who’ve experienced something similar? What are you mixed with, and did you ever struggle with feeling like you didn’t belong?

Long story short, there’s a girl who is fairly well-known on TikTok, and she has been spreading rumors about me and telling people things that are completely untrue.
She claims that I send her pictures to men, that I tell people I’m in a relationship with her husband, that I pretend to be Emirati, and that I send body pictures to men in exchange for money.
None of this is true. I genuinely don’t understand why she is saying these things about me or what she is trying to achieve by spreading them publicly.

I genuinely don’t understand the purpose of spreading false rumors about someone. Is it jealousy? Attention? Insecurity? Why make up lies like saying I send body pictures to men when it’s completely false? What do people actually gain from trying to ruin someone else’s reputation?

Lately, I can’t shake this feeling that maybe I’m meant to love other people, but never be loved the same way in return.
I love deeply. I care, I put in effort, and I get attached. But somehow, it always feels one-sided. I watch other people find someone who chooses them, while I keep wondering what I’m missing.
Have any of you ever felt this way? If you did, did that feeling ever change? I’d really like to hear your experiences.