Questioning a long term close friend that i no longer feel great with.
Hi, i would like peoples opinions on this. I have a long term 20 year friendship. I feel now i lack nurishment from this friend. Just for a bit of background i have been through a lot of growth, years of therapy and personal growth, i am a deep person but also bruised from abusive people which makes me more on guard with people in general but set this aside my friend is not a bad person but after all my therapy i realised ive been putting in more effort than this friend which i told him as i felt let down during a mental breakdown as we are very different in the fact that i would hold space and show up for a friend in my situation. But he didnt really make that much of an effort. Hes in his 50s and never left his mums house so i can see that he only knows what he knows as he has done the same thing all his life. My issue is when ever i meet up with him now i leave feeling deflated, and lonely. There is no depth in my eyes. I dont think he believes in me as a person because if i share aspirations he isnt encouraging and presumes i wont do it or stick it out. If we have converation im good at talking, i will go quiet and his conversation is surface level same old. I dont want to sound superior because i never used to feel like this but i do see how hes always been this way but i was more accepting in the past as i didnt see my self as worthy. If he was a bad friend id cut ties but hes not. So how do i navigate this as everytime i talk or meet with him it makes me feel flat and lonely. I do know psychology says that we can feel lonely if someone doesnt match our depth as we hold it on our own. If i have deep convo with him hes said he thinks im weird. What does one do?