u/Hot_War8630

Working on year 20 with my husband.. but I feel like a yo-yo, sometimes he's normal & cool/loving & other times I feel like he hates me & wants me just gone or dead. I feel unloved & unwanted.. im super pretty so I feel like 100 different men stare at me & want me everyday but the person I want hates me.. it leads to thoughts of separation or suic.. but I have a 5 year old so I'd have to stick around on earth & go through a messy divorce & be a single mom all because someone can't get their mental health together wtf